The patient and the doctor was myself alone. Whom should I talk to or share? Who could understand this? Can I forgive myself for having the idea of killing my beloved one? I have fought a lot to forget that idea and let it go, yet is too deep to get rid of now.
I do not want think anymore because I cannot even recognise myself. How could I not feel anything for all those days?
You cannot imagine how or what will happen next as you only heard about military coup from family members or relatives who survived from the last one. All you hear is that how bad it was, how many people were killed.