The Last Journey

 My journey will go on. I will hold Teresa and kiss her forehead softly and cary her speechless body to step forward over stairs of happiness house to her grave. I will continue to my journey while leaving her alone underground at the shadow of  that plane tree she used love. I will move away while taking deep breathes...

It was still dark when I was out at streets. It was cloudy and the wind was hitting my skin like a sharp knife. I was slowly taking steps to the hardest journey of my life.  The smile of Teresa and those unforgettable moments that we were making love with full of passion is visualized in my mind over and over again.This a trip that there is no way back from where I am going. I will hug her while her soul would already be away of her body. I will stare her eyes for minutes but she won't be able to recognize me. My tears will drop down to her face and she will not feel them. The words will stick in my throat and my soul will flutter to escape from cage it is imprisoned but it won't be able to break its chains that cover it. I will fall in sleeping while hugging Teresa tight. While I will be breathing with pain but in fact will be dieing over and over again with that pain stands in my heart. There will be no one to rescue me from the cage that Teresa imprisoned me. She will not able to give me a fake hug or a small kiss to my dry lips. I will tell her a fable to make myself to get used to sleep without her. I tell fable to myself because Teresa will not hear any single words drop out of my lips even it won't console me.

When I will wake up I will be covered with the blood of Teresa and the loneliness that surrounded me will be grew up more and this will make me freeze more. The bloods that moves in my veins will shred each piece my body they reach. I will hug my breathless angel once again to warm up myself. The words will stick in my throat and the sobs will disappear between my tears. The mistiness will increase, and the darkness will turn to a wild pain. My emotions, yes my emotions will disappear forever in my darkness while staring my eyes and telling me goodbye.

My journey will go on. I will hold Teresa and kiss her forehead softly and cary her speechless body to step forward over stairs of happiness house to her grave. I will continue to my journey while leaving her alone underground at the shadow of  that plane tree she used love. I will move away while taking deep breathes after buried my last flame of hope with Teresa's body.

I will walk nonstop. There will be nothing left to imagine more. I will be waiting the orders of dream angel with my darkness inside me. Neither the angle of death nor my growing loneliness will be able to scare me anymore.

I will go ahead while searching a way to get my feelings back but nobody will be able stand on my way to stop me or no one will be able to release me till the death catch me.

And my journey will continue while the love will be crying after me.....